It's amazing how slight changes can affect the start of your day so much. I woke up at 6:30 a.m. today. That is unheard of but since Tj was up to go into work early there was no going back to sleep. These days it is so hard for me to stay asleep. As soon as I even slightly wake up the heartburn and anxiety starts up and I can't relax. Usually when I wake up I groggily play with my iphone, browse reddit and dread starting the day, already unmotivated and bored. For some reason today I decided to pull out my scriptures instead, for the first time in months. I am not going to get all preachy in this post (you can read about what I believe here) but just that small reminder of why I am on earth gave me such a positive start to my day.
That may not seem like a big deal to anyone else but it felt huge to me. Throughout my pregnancy I have been in a major rutt. I've really struggled with the emotional rollar coaster my hormones bestowed upon me and haven't felt like myself. There is no better way to feel like myself than to be reminded that I am a daughter of god. I am here to learn and grow, not pass the time. That realization is my small victory for today. It's good to feel normal again. I am going to try and keep it up by laying off technology for a little while. I am waaaay too addicted to my phone so I need to start grabbing a book or a pencil instead.
On another note, today I have my 34 week ultrasound. I am very excited to have another peek at baby girl. Tj will be leaving work early to come with me. It is always so special to share these times with him. Only 5 more weeks until we are a family of three! The nursery is coming along and we are almost ready. I will definitely post pictures of it when it is finished. Its going to be the cutest room in my house for sure. :)
Resolutions
1. Cook more often- I do not LOVE to cook but I do love food. A lot. Tj and I watch cooking shows like crazy and we have become such food snobs that average food does not satisfy our cravings. Since dining at five star restaurants with chefs like Gordon Ramsey just isn't financially (or geographically) possible, I need to learn to make really yummy food myself. There are a few things I cook really well but overall I have very limited abilities. Dinner on the table every night isn't realistic but I would like to go for at least two new recipes a week. The only thing holding me back is the clean up part....
2. Take more pride in my home- I watch way too much HGTV and it results in me wanting to renovate everything and getting bummed out that I can't afford to do so. I also browse interiors on Pinterest religiously which also doesn't help my home envy. I have a very nice apartment and I am very lucky. 50% of the reason I get unhappy with it is usually because Tj and I are both pretty messy people. After it is all sparkling clean I am a lot more satisfied. I want to focus more on what I CAN do to make my place a home instead of having all these unrealistic expectations. The most important thing is that it is inviting and feels like "me" (I say me and not us because Tj really couldn't care less about decor). I am going to do this by cleaning more regularly and making one small improvement at a time even if its just hanging a picture.
3. Become an awesome mom!- I know this is vague, but since I am inevitably going to become a mom in just about 9 weeks, I wanted to include a mom related goal. I haven't been a mom before so I honestly don't know where to start. I guess I just want to try and do the best I can but also not be too hard on myself when I make amateur mistakes. I want to enjoy the little moments spent with my Daughter in her first year . I know it will cruise on by and I tend to not be very good at living in the moment, especially when sleep deprived. I also would like to document all my new experiences with her as often as I can through blogging/pictures etc.
Sooo I think that is a pretty good start for now. I have other goals for art and design but I feel that these things are more important right now, so I'd like to keep my list simple.
I just know this year is going to be amazing.
Reasons
This is a blog about me, Kat Roberts. I know super creative title. However, I change my mind A LOT and I didn't want to pick a name that I felt limited what I blog about. After using the excuse of thinking of a blog name for months I decided to just go with my name so I can start writing.
So a little about me, I have been married for about a year now to the sweetest guy in the world and I five months pregnant with a baby girl(coming march 11th!). I am a graphic designer/oil painter and I am currently working from home for a design company while also "working on" personal projects. Since being pregnant I have kind of felt like I am in limbo. I am not sure how else to describe it. I just felt like I couldn't do anything except focus on growing a baby. Partially from being so tired and partially just from...not knowing what to do with myself. I knew my whole life would never be the same once this little girl comes and I had kind of a mental block on self progression. Although I am very excited for this baby to be a part of our litte family the pregnancy hormones have prevented me from feeling like myself. For the first few months I will admit I was ridiculously lazy and let any creative aspirations I have fall to the wayside. As March draws nearer I have felt more of an urgency to do things that I won't have as much time to do later. I will of course still be able to do the things I love but I want to make sure I get to fit in as many projects as I can before she comes. I will never have more time than I do now.
This is the reason I am starting this blog. I really needed a place to help keep my thoughts organized. Documenting memories and projects I am working on is the best way I know how to do that. I tend to get very overwhelmed by my ideas. There are so many artsy things I want to learn/make that I don't know which thing to start with and I just end up shutting down and watching netflix instead. Maybe I have attention span issues :)
Hopefully with this blog I can stay on task. My posts, like this one may get a little ramble-y and they may be all over the place content wise but I am okay with that. I am doing this for myself. It is officially time for me to stop making excuses and being a lazy pregnant lady because no one can make me feel happy but me.
So a little about me, I have been married for about a year now to the sweetest guy in the world and I five months pregnant with a baby girl(coming march 11th!). I am a graphic designer/oil painter and I am currently working from home for a design company while also "working on" personal projects. Since being pregnant I have kind of felt like I am in limbo. I am not sure how else to describe it. I just felt like I couldn't do anything except focus on growing a baby. Partially from being so tired and partially just from...not knowing what to do with myself. I knew my whole life would never be the same once this little girl comes and I had kind of a mental block on self progression. Although I am very excited for this baby to be a part of our litte family the pregnancy hormones have prevented me from feeling like myself. For the first few months I will admit I was ridiculously lazy and let any creative aspirations I have fall to the wayside. As March draws nearer I have felt more of an urgency to do things that I won't have as much time to do later. I will of course still be able to do the things I love but I want to make sure I get to fit in as many projects as I can before she comes. I will never have more time than I do now.
This is the reason I am starting this blog. I really needed a place to help keep my thoughts organized. Documenting memories and projects I am working on is the best way I know how to do that. I tend to get very overwhelmed by my ideas. There are so many artsy things I want to learn/make that I don't know which thing to start with and I just end up shutting down and watching netflix instead. Maybe I have attention span issues :)
Hopefully with this blog I can stay on task. My posts, like this one may get a little ramble-y and they may be all over the place content wise but I am okay with that. I am doing this for myself. It is officially time for me to stop making excuses and being a lazy pregnant lady because no one can make me feel happy but me.
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